Well I made it through September, my dad did not come home for our birthdays. I was pissed but realized I was going to be so busy that I would not get much time with him anyway.
It is now approaching Christmas and this time last year is when my mom got sick. It is hitting me very hard. Every memory I have - good or bad - is just another reminder that she is not here any more. I miss her so much. I never knew it would hurt this bad. My first Christmas without my mom....does not make for a joyful Christmas.
I would say my dad is not handling things well either. On the outside he talks tough but his actions are loud and clear. He wants to get rid of everything that has anything to do with THEM or HER. So much that he even decided to sell the house at the lake. My knight in shining armor came to the rescue and made him an offer. After some hard dealings we finally all came to an agreement. My dad was/is an ass about it and it has put a strain on our relationship. We are know having to PURCHASE the lake house instead of it be given to us as promised for the last 20 something years.
At this point I am looking to make next year a better one and focus on me and my family. Time for me to be selfish! Tony and Lynsie are the reason I get out of bed each day.
