UPDATE!

Wow it has been since March of last year since I posted anything. Goes to show how busy things have been.

Miss my mom and Pepper every day.

Let's see - Lynsie and John moved in to my parents house (the one I grew up in). My dad is living in Kansas. He is happy and that is all that really matters.

Still going to the SHARKS games.

Spending lots of time at the lake updating the house. Redecorating is hard.

Christmas was just blah. Did it but didn't love it. Thinking next year we may just be on vacation.

Still more skin cancer removed.

All is good with Tony and I and the business.

Our latest current issue is taking care of Tony's dad. He has dementia and we moved him to CA yesterday. He is not happy with the adjustment yet. After some time - a month or a year - he will settle down and be happier here.

Well tah tah for now.

SAD DAY =(

Today we had to make a very hard decision.

My Pepper had a hard weekend and today she had a hard time moving around. She looked sad and was not herself. There was no way we could continue to let her be like this. She has been the GREATEST DOG EVER! Everyone that knew her always said what a great dog she was and loved her. So gentle and loving to everyone.

Tony, Lynsie and I held her as she crossed over the Rainbow Bridge. I am heart broken yet know that we made the right decision for her.

RIP Pepper

NOOOOOO!!!! =(

We just found out that Pepper has Leukemia. We are going to treat it and see what happens. She started her oral chemo today and so far so good she is not vomiting.
She is slowing down and at 14 that makes sense but I think if she can get feeling better and the arthritis does not get worse during this treatment that we may get at best a few more months with our wonderful dog.

I love her so much! <3 She brightens my day - every day. I am so blessed to work from home!

Just another Christmas

I could really just skip Christmas this year. Not prepared for it - not in the mood for it and getting excited about our cruise to Mexico with Lynsie and Kendall on Jan 3rd!
Lynsie and John are turning out to be a great couple!
We have had the house at the lake in our name for a year now. I love being up there and hope we can continue to spend lots of time there!

Happy Birthday to ME

WOW! What a great birthday party! Once again all my friends and I partied the night away and from what I can remember ~~ IT WAS A GREAT TIME!!
Of course I had my moments on my mom's birthday but I am starting to cope a bit better. I miss her EVERY DAY! I want her back. I still have so many questions and need her advice about so many things.
My dad - well, he is not making points with me but he is not here much anyway. He comes home for about 3 weeks and then returns to Kansas. I feel like I have lost both my parents.

Summer Fun

This 4th of July was so great! Kendall and Scott came to the lake. Then this guy, John, that Lynsie has her eye on at work - came up too. We had a blast!! It felt so good to have everyone at the house..like the good ole days!!

Time Flys

I cannot believe it is almost April. Life is busy and things are going well. I miss my mom daily and my dad has been gone for 3 months in Kansas. He will only be home a few weeks and then he and Shirley are hitting the road again. Not looking forward to meeting her but it has to happen at some point.

New Year, New Outlook!

I made it through the Holidays and my mom's 1 year date of death anniversary. My Aunt Lee passed away and the funeral was on the date of death of my mom. It was not an easy day. It was also Tony's birthday. 3 o'clock was our cut off of bad to good. The rest of this year has been great !! We are looking forward to all the new changes coming our way. We bought the house at the lake. We are investing a lot of time going to all the SHARKS games! Lynsie is happy at work at Fremont Ford and doing well in school.

Bah Hum Bug

Well I made it through September, my dad did not come home for our birthdays. I was pissed but realized I was going to be so busy that I would not get much time with him anyway.

It is now approaching Christmas and this time last year is when my mom got sick. It is hitting me very hard. Every memory I have - good or bad - is just another reminder that she is not here any more. I miss her so much. I never knew it would hurt this bad. My first Christmas without my mom....does not make for a joyful Christmas.

I would say my dad is not handling things well either. On the outside he talks tough but his actions are loud and clear. He wants to get rid of everything that has anything to do with THEM or HER. So much that he even decided to sell the house at the lake. My knight in shining armor came to the rescue and made him an offer. After some hard dealings we finally all came to an agreement. My dad was/is an ass about it and it has put a strain on our relationship. We are know having to PURCHASE the lake house instead of it be given to us as promised for the last 20 something years.

At this point I am looking to make next year a better one and focus on me and my family. Time for me to be selfish! Tony and Lynsie are the reason I get out of bed each day.

September Sadness

Well these last few months have not been easy. I am still trying to find ways to cope with the loss of my mom. Our birthdays are just around the corner and I am struggling to get excited about my birthday. To get to my birthday I have to get through hers. My dad is out of town in Kansas. I am not happy that he has been gone for over a month. On top of that he fell and got pretty banged up and I am not there to take care of him.

I take one day at a time and some are easier than others. Tony and Lynsie have been so good to help make things easier. I am so blessed to have such a great support team.

My cousin Carolyn passed away last week. Makes me sad that my dad missed that service.

So now I am trying to stay busy with organizing the house and organizing my computer. It is almost time for our annual pumpkin carving party !! I am looking forward to seeing friends and taking the opportunity to get caught up.

I miss my mom in so many ways.

I miss Tim. We were not always close after school but the last 4 years we saw each and kept in touch during the year. I have a new friend in Dawn and his passing has brought us closer.